Looking Forward

OK I know I have been a bad boy.  I know that you know that I know that you know that I finished my last chemo session 2 weeks ago.  And I know that you know that I said that I would write and never let more than 1 week go in between posts.  And You know that I know that you have checked to look for updates since my last session. All I can say in defense is you know that I am truly sorry.  But as the last needle was taken out of my arm on that Friday, I felt as though I was wrapping up a chapter in my life that, while I'd rather file it under one of those forgettable chapters in a book where nothing really good happens, truth is that chapter will have a profound influence on me and it is one that as much as I wish to forget, its affect will never let go.  So, as I began the recovery process, I tried not revisit, and just focused on the day to day healing.  I must say that for 4 or 5 days I was miserable.  And last week I only went to work when I felt strong enough to try and make it.  Monday I was in for an hour, but as the week progressed I actually made it for a majority of the day.  Today I was in for the full day, complete with musical rehearsal after and I am still (pseudo going).  As I tell everyone who asks me how I am doing, Every day Truly is a better day.  Red and white blood cells are regenerating, hair is starting to make an appearance, and my energy is rising.  The biggest issue I face on a day to day basis is just how quickly winded I become.  That and the muted hearing and loud tinnitus.  Walking from the parking lot to my office takes me 5 minutes to regain my breath.  Heck walking up and down stairs leaves my winded. So I have learned to pace myself and take things slower, although I do tempt fate to see how quickly I do become winded in hopes of trying to build some stamina back up. 

My follow-up is next week. Monday is the CT scan followed by a visit to see the Doc on Wednesday where he will tell me that the scans are clear.  I will post again either Monday or Wednesday depending on when I get any results.  After that it will be on a appointment by appointment basis (typically 1 month in between each) just to let you know.

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Thank you so much for your prayers, your thoughts, your well wishes these past 16 weeks.  I don't think I would have had the strength that I did, the desire to keep going, and the determination to finish this thing out.  I won't sit here and lie and tell you that it was easy.  There were a number of times I thought I just won't go, I don't wanna go, or take this damn thing out of me, 2 is enough!  But something kept me going and I strongly feel that it was all of you.  

I do hope that if you are a male that you have done a check.  If your a father with teenage boys, or adolescent boys that you tell them to check, because this thing can move fast and it does not discriminate.  In case you need the website to refresh... here it is.

Comments

[Mom]

Thank You for your update. And yes prayers will continue coming your way forever.
We love you
Mom

[Jon O'Neal]

I love you man! I'm psyched to hear everything is going well. I'll be praying for continued healing and positive results from the doc.